“It’s not so much the waves crashing, it’s knowing who’s in control of the waves.” Courtney Miller
Can we have peace in the middle of the storm?
Well, yesterday was one of those days – it was a hard day! Have you ever been trying to start your day, but all you can seem to focus on is all the multi-layers of “why” or “why not?” That seem to be the center of my day.
Have you ever tried to tell yourself everything will work out, but then you get overwhelmingly frustrated because your still dealing with the outcome of some horrible choices you made? That was me yesterday. All you want is to hear from our Father, because the last thing you want is mention your troubles to someone who has never gone through it. Let’s be real, we all have been there- whether you called your mom. dad, husband, wife, sister, brother, or best friend, God knows they try their best, but that just not the Words you wanted or needed. Yes I wrote, Words.
After my crying, crying, crying, talking, talking, and talking I finally was honest with God – begging and pleading for His Words. I remember hearing, “God is not scared of your thoughts!” That’s all I needed, I was able to really let go; because somethings are left undone, somethings are placed in His hands because I’ve done all I can do at the moment and there is truly nothing left to do but hold on to what He said until something changes or He gives my next steps.
I still don’t understand how some of the most broken moments I have had brings intimacy with my Father. All day was a day of checking in with my realness and just essence of being human – some days are hard! But what I love about God is He is still God, and I’m not. After all my tears, prayers, and scriptures my day ended with my youngest daughter reading her devotional titled “dreamer.”
It was all about Philippians 4:
10 But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at last you have revived your concern for me; indeed, you were concerned before, but you lacked opportunity.11 Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am.12 I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance Ihave learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need.13I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.14 Nevertheless, you have done well to share with me in my affliction.
This spoke directly to very thing I was hurting about all day. I’m sure God gave me His Words – once again He answered. Once again He continues to restore my faith to where it needs to be – on His promises. No matter what you and I may be going through – seek Him, call out to Him, cry out to Him, ask for forgiveness, and ask Him for the very Word He knows we need. I learned while I wait, wait with expecting His promises. If He didn’t promise, then pray with petition and thanksgiving and let Him answer how He chooses. I made a choice a while ago to stop direction my ship, I’m going to let the Captain (my Father) do that for me. I am so thankful He is patient with me and answers me when I feel alone, or I need to know what He is saying over the matters of my life.
So yes, I do think we can have peace in the middle of the storm because our joy is fixed on Him. He is still our joy, even when it’s a hard day!
Matthew 4:4 (NASB)
4 But He answered and said, “It is written, ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.’”