Some people may wonder why I connect myself to Menorah candles, why I keep the Feast Days of the Lord, or why I believe the Sabbath is on Saturday. It’s been a long journey and I wasn’t always this way. I had a life changing experience with Jesus and I’ve never been the same.
I know people are skeptical of God using dreams to speak to us, but He can. When I am sure He gave me a dream, it is usually because He backs it up with His Word. I have had a few dreams during my journey and He is so real. I want to share something I believe He revealed to me.
After my second brain surgery I began praying for the Truth. I know Jesus is the Truth, He is the Word of God that came as a human. However, I was stuck on Matthew 7. Whenever I read there is a narrow road and few find it, or He will say, “Depart from me you that practice lawlessness” my heart felt like it skipped a beat. These Words cut me so deep I sometimes cried. Then I was reading how much Jesus was warning us of false prophets and teachers, it really made me wonder. I kept praying and told Him I wanted to know the Truth. Meaning, I wanted the True Jesus not a fake or phony Jesus. When I gave Him my life I really gave Him my whole life and I wanted my relationship to be real and authentic. I wanted His Truth, not things added or taken away. I kept praying for this…
One day I felt like I heard back: How much of me do you want? I trembled and responded,” As much as You will give me as long as You will cause my faith to stand in it.” I know I can’t be perfect or walk my faith out perfectly, but I really wanted to and still want to imitate Him. I had three strange events that allowed me to see deeper.
First I Learned:
Matthew 7:21-23 NASB
21 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter. 22 Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ 23 And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; leave Me, you who practice lawlessness.
That word lawlessness means: 458 anomía (from 1 /A “not” and 3551 /nómos, “law”) – properly, without law; (https://biblehub.com/strongs/matthew/7-23.htm)
I watched a few videos on this and I heard another way to say this Greek word (anomia) was without the law, meaning without Torah. When I heard this I chuckled. I thought Torah was something Jews did in the Old Testament. I thought Torah belonged in the Old Testament; I was reading in the New Testament. I have since come to understand the word Torah simply means God’s instructions, teachings, or law.
Second I Learned:
My mom did an ancestry test and found out she was like 28% Jewish. That surprised us all! We had no idea. I thought it was the weirdest thing. I want to be clear, when I found this out I didn’t look into Judaism; I just remember thinking it was strange because we really had no idea.
Thirdly I Had A Dream:
My family was getting ready to celebrate Christmas. I loved to feel the change of weather. I embraced the cold air with warm cookies, coffee, hot chocolate, the fireplace, family and friends, and of course the Christmas tree and presents. I enjoyed the autumn, winter, festive lights, and warm colors as we prepared to celebrate the memory of Jesus coming as a baby into the world, His birth. However, to make a long story short, this year I wasn’t feeling it.
It was strange. It was like I woke up with a convection that I can’t explain. I started questioning everything about it. I mean what did santa, reindeer, presents, the Christmas tree, and decorations have to do with Jesus? Then I began thinking about the date. Because I had been reading the Bible so much I never remember seeing that date in reference to anything. My heart went back to: Worship Him in Spirit and in Truth. I didn’t understand how this was in Spirit or Truth. I knew I began pulling away from it and I didn’t tell anyone because I knew how much my family loved this holiday and I didn’t want to be a party pooper. This stayed on my mind so much and one night as I was going to sleep I said a prayer to God within myself, not out loud. I prayed and asked God if there were any holidays I should celebrate that I wasn’t. I was talking about Christmas really, I didn’t know if I was offending God because I was pulling away from it.
That night I dreamt I was in a car line and there were cars in front and behind me. This line seemed like it had no end and it seemed like this car line was in the mountains, and there was nothing in sight but super clear light and skies. The car in front of me had two girls who waved to me, I waved back; then I saw a just married sign on their car and I was so scared for them. I was trying to warn them and signaled to them they would go down below, to hell, if they didn’t stop. Next thing I know, I was rising high into the sky and I was out of the car. I couldn’t see my body, but it was me. I was within my thinking but I didn’t see my body. As I was suspended in mid air and I was brought close to the sky. I saw a light with pastel rainbow colors intertwined together. It was rainbow colors as a light all woven together with this still and peaceful presence. This presence caused me to be under its authority, like it had all of my attention in a way I had never experienced. Then I saw this huge candle come out of the sky. This candle was so huge, it reminded me of a tower in the sky. It just stood there perfectly still in front of my face. Then I woke up.
When I woke up I thought to myself, “I think that’s a candle Jews use.” I did a little research and I saw it was a Menorah Candle. I thought it was the strangest thing. I had no idea what that had to do with me.
I walked away from these three events trying to wrap my head around all this and I didn’t understand. I did research on the Menorah Candle and I saw it was designed by God and was used in the Temple, I didn’t know that. Then I researched it in connection to Christianity and that’s where I learned about God’s appointed Feasts and Shabbat (the Sabbath.) This was in 2017 and I am still learning how Jesus is involved in all the Feast and in the Old Testament. I couldn’t believe what I was reading. I really believed He woke me up, I wouldn’t have figured this out on my own – I am not that smart! I don’t go around telling people I am Jewish (the little 15% is hardly anything to talk about.) However, I do think God had some appointments He scheduled, and I believe He wants us to be there.
I sat in bed asking God about all the information I was gathering and if it was True and I sat there and opened my Bible and each time I turned the pages my eyes kept seeing, “God of Israel and God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. That’s all I saw. It jolted me. I have been learning so much, He took me further than I was asking! It starts with a relationship with Him – with a true, sincere, and pure heart to have faith in Jesus. Then we don’t stop there, we keep walking with Him.
Why This Writing Ministry
I have so many more stories I could share, but my goal is to use this writing platform I am blessed with to share pieces of encouragement. I believe we are supposed to be a light and tell the world who He is and what He has done for us. We are supposed to be light bearers to the world. Share your testimonies with others and share the gospel of Jesus with others. My goal is to live my remaining days impactful for His Kingdom! I also learned a sincere heart that is following Jesus will want to be corrected and be discipled.
I shared my testimony to share my experience I had with Jesus (Yeshua.) I want people to know He is so real, and He is alive and breathing. He is the One and Only God – there is no other. I also want people to know that you are created with a purpose and you have an identity in Your Father! I honestly feel like I have a Father, I feel like one of His kids. I love learning His ways because I walk with an identity ( a mark.) I shared that particular dream because His Spirit can show you something that you may not have figured out in your own understanding. Once again, His Spirit is alive and breathing. I wanted to encourage all my brothers and sisters in Christ to keep sharing your testimonies and keep growing in your relationship with Jesus.
I also wanted others who are not believers or are on the fence to know that if you truly seek Him, you will find Him – and if you allow Him into your life He will change it and use it for His glory. I know every believer may not agree with me on every point, but I believe we are called to be united at this time. So yes, some people look at me a little strange for keeping the Sabbath on Friday from sundown to Saturday sundown, not eating unclean meats, or celebrating the Feasts of God, but for all of you who do – keep going – I know it can feel lonely sometimes. Either way, your choices are between you and God. Regardless of how this is received, my prayer is that we all keep learning who Jesus is and keep doing whatever He says to do.